Is it always so hard to say goodbye?

I haven't been able to sleep the past couple of nights very well. I find myself staying up way to late, and awaking before the break of dawn. Granted some of those days I have an alarm set for my long runs, but like today I woke up with no reason. Laying awake in bed for hours seems pointless to me when I can be getting so much done while the rest of the house is still sleeping. Mike and I are leaving our kids for a week and going to Hawaii today, and I kinda think that is the main culprit for my insomnia. I have such a hard time leaving home, Mike thinks I am a little silly, but it really is so hard for me. My 3 little ones are my world, that is what I do 24 hours a day, I am their #1. It is hard sometimes, and I go a little crazy and wonder what I got myself into, but it is times like these that I realize how much they are a part of me and who I am. Ahh, I have butterflies in my tummy, and tears in my eyes. Bless my parents for watching them while I am gone, it is such a peaceful thought to know that they are in such good hands. My parents are such wonderful people, and I couldn't ask for better more loving and supportive parents and grandparents for my children. I think that each of my children feel like and think that they are their favorite, and isn't that just how if ought to be? Ok I can't get started here or I will be a complete mess. All I can say is that I have the most wonderful parents in the world, and the very sweetest children ever, and I am going to miss them so very much. I will miss my Boo, Char Man, and Bubba, your mommy loves you more than words.