Happy Birthday Elliot!

Today we are celebrating Elliot's 1st Birthday. Wow, what a year. It has gone by so fast and yet if I think about each day it has been the longest year and days in my life. I have felt so many emotions, good and bad, happy, excited, overjoyed, sad, concerned, desperate, depressed, alone, and heartbroken. All of these are all so familiar. When I was making this slide show, I couldn't help but get sucked in to each emotion I felt at the time each picture was taken. Tears would fall, then I would be laughing out loud. I love Elliot so much and he is such a blessing in my life. It is so hard to put it into words how he has changed me. I feel like a different person, I look at life so differently, some of you might know how I feel. Living life knowing that your child isn't going to have a normal life, knowing that he will be sick about half the year, torturing him every morning and night by doing his therapy in hopes that it will prolong his life. Keeping me up at night thinking about hearing the rasp in his voice, or the difficulty of breathing at night. It breaks my heart. Going to doctor appointments and getting bad news, or being told that he isn't growing. Having a G-tube threat hanging over my head. It hits you like a Semi going full speed. Don't get me wrong I wouldn't change him for the world, it is just so hard. I feel like I am Fanny in "Fanny's Dream." It is a children's book, that I love. Her life isn't quite the way that I dreamed it would be, but the life that she got she would change it even when her Fairy Godmother said that she would. She loved short little Herby and wouldn't want her life any other way. I feel that same way, I have 3 beautiful children, a caring loving, and patient husband, a very supportive family, a good home, wonderful neighbors, great ward, and perfect friends. What more could I ask for?
This is suppose to be a post about Elliot, so here goes...... Elliot is such a happy little boy, and loves life. You won't find ones that is better natured. He loves his big sister and brother, and tries to be just like them. He loves to sing, and play with cars. He gets into everything and is great at making messes. He took 3 steps this morning before breakfast. He loves to eat sweet things, and has 2 new sweet little teeth that just broke through last week. He can say moma, dada, thank you, and a-ohh. He loves to try and mimic what we say, and is great at yelling as loud as he can to get our attention. Happy Birthday sweet boy! Moma loves you so much.